I am more aware everyday of this tug of war going on inside of me. My life is so self centered. Everything revolves around me, my comfort, that thing I've always wanted, etc. Even with my kids. I love them so much and would lay down my life for them, yet, I get so frustrated when I'm inconvenienced or put out.
I had been thinking about the story of the Rich Young Ruler in Luke and how much like that I am. I think if I do enough "good" then I am ok. My standard is those around me instead of Jesus Christ...instead of what He has called me to do.
Chad and I were talking the other day, and I can't help but think that you could fit "American" in verse 24.
Speaking to underground church leaders in China was equally enlightening. Most surprising to me was their response when I told them about “church” in America. I did not expect the response I got when I explained how common it is for people to switch churches if they find another with better child-care, better music, or a more gifted speaker. They laughed really hard. It was weird. It was like they thought I was joking. It opened my eyes to the uniqueness of our situation. Remember that India and China combined represent almost 40% of the world’s population. The U.S. represents about 4%. Too often I have looked at other cultures as being strange. I forget that we are the minority. "
I am so thankful for God's grace. Thankful that, even though I am a selfish American, He is working on me and letting me be a part of something amazing. I am so challenged by this young girl. She has truly left everything and gone to Africa to be a mother to a house full of orphans. She has feeding programs and much more. Check out her blog!