Chad and I are up in gatlinburg for two nights to celebrate our 10th anniversary. We both slept until we woke up. It's he first time I've really slept in months. I usually have at least one kiddo in my bed. Most nights two...and sometimes 3 or 4. I woke up feeling wonderful. I don't think I realized how worn out I was feeling.
I was able to sit out on the balcony and have quiet time this morning. It wa so peaceful and quiet. I needed the time with god so badly. I felt so revived by him. But also, in his love, he really convicted me. I've been trying to do so much without him...and my kids are paying the price. I'm not swing them the love of Jesus...I can't if I'm not having quality time with him. I've been squeezing it in where I can and praying "lord, help me!" all day. But if I'm not walking in his strength and grace I can't show it to my kids. The have treating each other very "ugly" lately. This morning, what I already knew became more real. They are acting just like me. Impatient, no grace, etc. I got on the phone with each kid this morning. When christy got on she asked if I knew "that song about Jesus". I asked which one and then she started to sing Jesus loves me. "little ones to Him belong. They are weak but He is strong. Yes Jesus loves me...". "my" little ones belong to Him. They are weak, but HE is strong and he can shine through me if I'll let Him.
Now off to enjoy my sweet husband. So thankful for him!