Today was a good day. I've not been out of the house for a couple of days and my mom picked us up and took us to the mountains. I needed the distraction. I find that things hit me the hardest when I'm alone and have nothing to do. I start to think about the events of the past week. Then, I start to think about our kids in Africa. I'm getting so impatient lately. I just want them home now. It's been really frustrating....just waiting and being helpless...knowing what they're going through. While today was a good day...it seems like there is a huge hole in our family...even in our day to day routines. I cannot wait until we can make these trips as a whole family. This being still and knowing He is God....it takes practice!