A friend of mine gave me "Streams in the Desert" last week when we got some bad news. In reading, God's been showing me some things about myself. I already knew that I don't like to wait! I like to make something happen and not wait one more second than absolutely necessary. But...sometimes....you have no choice. We are in some situations in life right now where I have no choice but to WAIT. I can say...."We're just waiting on God....". But, in all reality....I'm waiting...because I have to, but, going crazy in the meantime...it has nothing to do with God!
Waiting is not RESTING. Resting is what I should be doing. Waiting doesn't necessarily mean I'm trusting God. Waiting doesn't mean that I'm developing character in a hard time. Right now, I'm helpless. There is nothing I can do. AT. ALL. But, I have a choice. I can choose to do what I do best....drive myself...and my husband....crazy and wear myself out. Or I can rest. Rest in God. Rest in the fact that He's got all of this. Rest knowing that He is sovereign. Rest because He loves us and all of our children. Rest because He knows exactly what's going on and He is SO much better at this than I am! Rest because He is my God.
I'm learning to rest. Life is so much better when I'm resting. I think that experiencing God in a new and fresh way has come from learning to rest. I think resting has meant stopping my insanity and allowing God to comfort me. To just be with Him....that's resting.
RESTING HAPPENS IN HIS PRESENCE!
Psalm 37:4 and 7
Be still in the presence of the Lord and wait patiently for Him to act.
I wait quietly before God, for my salvation comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will never be shaken.
I have seen you in your sanctuary and gazed upon your power and glory.
Strength comes from quietness and confidence in Him.
This is what the Sovereign Lord,
the Holy One of Israel, says:
“Only in returning to me
and resting in me will you be saved.
In quietness and confidence is your strength.
But you would have none of it.
my eyes are not haughty.
I don’t concern myself with matters too great
or too awesome for me to grasp.
2 Instead, I have calmed and quieted myself,
like a weaned child who no longer cries for its mother’s milk.
Yes, like a weaned child is my soul within me.
3 O Israel, put your hope in the Lord—now and always.
This passage has really convicted me. It is prideful to think that I can handle these matters. There is so much joy and freedom when you stand in awe of God and choose to rest in Him. I'm seeking His grace to live with childlike faith and resting in Him.